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So.. i sat here thinking.. im actually afraid of beeing loved. or even falling in love.
It makes me sad, and almost angry at myself for beeing this way. I have probably even broken some hearts because of the way i am. not because i dont like the person, or.. that my feelings are not strong enough.
At the moment i feel that im not worthy anyone. for the past year ive felt this way i guess.
Worst part is that i feel these feelings more and more. Almost as it grows stronger. Its like all the stuff ive been working on with my head the past year, is slowly shifting over to some other problem. as nothing can be perfect. (well everything cant be perfect, but you get the idea)
It would be nice to wake up with someone again tho.. just the feeling of beeing close to someone would be nice. i miss that.
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so, its 07:48 in the morning. I dont exactly feel depressed, but its kinda similar feeling, sitting here, thinking on the road i have to take soon, to get back to work again. its allmost been a year now since i went on medical leave. its going to feel good to have a reason to get up in the morning again, but at the same time its somewhat scary :P
When i feel the way i feel right now, its sort of a reaction i get. i put on City and Colour just to listen to Dallas Green’s fantastic voice, and it really helps my mood, thinking back to the first time i saw them live and how fantastic it is that the recording of that exact concert is on spotify. “i was there” i think, and i think back on how good i felt after the concert. its been fuel for me, for many days of feeling down.
So right now, i cant wait for the next year to arrive, when im going to Oslo to see them again.
cant wait <3